Remember when I had a blog that I loved and updated regularly?
Well, you might not. But I do.
You know how sometimes you love something so much, so you dive in headfirst and you spend as much time as you possibly can trying to make it as awesome as possible? And after days/weeks/months/years of putting it before nearly everything, you remember that, you know, life outside of it is important too. So then you decide to make time for life, and make the blog less of a focus. And then you pretty much forget that you have a blog until you decide that you need to rant about your cat but it's way too late at night to text anyone and suddenly you're 'OH RIGHT. I KNOW WHERE I CAN RANT ABOUT MY CAT REGARDLESS OF THE TIME OF DAY OR NIGHT!'. So then you write up a post, get embarrassed that you typed a crazy cat lady post well after midnight, and choose to schedule the post instead?
Yeah it's been like that around here lately. I just got to the point where I was blogging solely because I felt like my sponsors needed to get their money worth--well, and also to keep up with the Joneses, you know? Because everyone in blogland has sponsors, and participates in giveaways, and puts up photos of their super cute outfits (that pretty much never repeat, AS IF THAT IS ACTUALLY REAL LIFE), and they post their awesome recipes, and photos of their pyrex finds, and I was trying to keep up. I was failing miserably, I might add, because I hated every minute of trying to keep up.
Dudes, I'm not cool. I'm not the person that sets trends or starts the new fad meme that spreads like wildfire throughout the blogging clique.
Also: I hate blogging cliques. Seriously.
I started seeing my blog colors and fonts everywhere, but other people were using them so much better than I was. There were bloggers that were producing painfully creative content every single day, including downloads and printables and recipe cards that were so cute. I started hating my blog, and hating my writing, and I even got to the point where I stopped pinning--because I felt like everyone was pinning better stuff than I was, for goodness sake.
Although I love each and every person that I've met through blogging, I really don't care about the number of GFC followers I have. I don't check Bloglovin or Feedburner to see how many subscribers I have, or check how many likes I have on Facebook. Keeping up with all of the stats and graphs and pie charts was making me crazy, and more importantly it was making me feel inadequate.
I took a step back, re-evaluated how I was judging myself and discovered why I was judging myself.
I am not Martha Stewart. When you walk into my condo, you will see a few dirty dishes in the sink and a half-assed attempt at a few DIY crafts. You will not see scrapbooks (that I made, at least), you will not see closet organizers, and you certainly will not find bunting. I fucking hate bunting.
I am not Shrimp Salad Circus, or The Boot, or IHeartOrganizing. I love all of the bloggers dearly, and I read their blogs daily, but right now I am not going to post perfectly photographed recipes, or create daily DIY tutorials, or even walk you through the renovations in my home. I tried all of the above, and failed horribly at it, because those aren't things that I really enjoy doing--or blogging about.
For now on, I'm not going to have ads in my sidebar. I don't enjoy the pressure that they bring, nor do I enjoy having to say yes to one that might not normally simply because it sucks being the person turned down for an ad. I'm not going to be buying ad space on other blogs, for now, because then I'm not only pressured to blog frequently, but I also feel pressured to take part in the giveaways. Lets be honest--everyone is sick of the giveaways where people win ad space or a guest post somewhere. I don't have a shop of some sort, and I don't really feel like buying into a big prize just to gain followers, so it just doesn't make sense to me.
This turned out to be far longer and rambly-er that was intended. Recap: I'm going to post what I want to post, instead of trying to keep up with you ridiculously stylish and creative people, and I'm not going to participate in sponsorships right now because of pressure and stuff.
I love all of your faces.